Last week, my father and I talked a lot via cell phone. He read a article to me, it’s a letter from a famous journalist to his son, what he said is some basic philosophies of life. One of them is ‘besides your parents, nobody really cares about you, and nobody is really important to you.’ I learnt a lot from these words, it frees my mind. I thought my ex-girlfriend Elizabeth is very important to me, after we spent a terrible night on Sept 1st 2009, I never contact her again, and I even refused to be a friend of her. I tortured myself badly, I slept a little, and I smoke a lot. I thought she is my only reason to live, and I will never love again. Actually I was wrong, besides my parents, nobody is really important to me. I cared about her toooooo much, and completely lost myself.
After well-thought, I text her to say I am sorry a few days ago. Though contact ex-girlfriend is totally a mistake, our story is complex, so I know it’s better to be friends with her not strangers. I wasn’t sure about if I won’t love her anymore, but I am pretty sure about that now. Cause another girl came into my life, she is Jill, or as she wrote on MSN – Jilli. I met her about a month ago on RenRen(Chinese Facebook), started with some music topics. Then we exchanged MSN, QQ and cell phone numbers. Most important is we are from the same university, the same hometown and working in the same city now.
Jill is cute and smart, what surprises me is her major is physics. The first time I saw her was to watch a movie. She asked me if I could got one IMAX-3D Avatar ticket, helped her to get one. And I desired to that movie too, but it’s really hard to get the tickets or I must wait in the line outside the movie at least 10 hours to buy it. At last, I bought scalped-tickets. I am shamed to said that, but it’s really worthy. When I found her outside the movie that day, I was surprised for the second time, she was much beautiful than on pictures. I had a crush on her suddenly. I wanna ask her out again, but I don’t know if it’s too fast, and I am a little messed up. We just regularly have some talk online everyday. I like her character, anyway I will try to figure out if I have a change, whatever the result is.
She think the music I listen (Death Metal, Black Metal) is too extreme, so I was trying to listen some Chinese pop she introduced to me, but I haven’t listened any Chinese music for about twelve years, it’s too soft for me. I gave up, I shouldn’t change who I am, even music taste. I have changed a lot when being with my Elizabeth, but I will not do that again.
One hour before Milan Derby, good luck, Inter!
